In Need of Therapy

I want to go to a shrink. I feel like I need an hour or so to vent my frustrations. Because my husband is not a very good "therapist" (listener).

I thought a husband will listen and help solve my issues. But no, my husband does not have the knack for that. He just lets shit pile on and on until I am way too stressed.

I need to refocus and gain my balance back. I cannot plan my business actions like I used to. It has taken me so long to do just one single task on my To Do List that it's starting to scare me. I'm not in a rut. Alright, alright. I'm in a rut.

Managing business rut.

But I know the root of all my problems. My crazy mother.

Treadmill Determination

I was planning to name this entry "Treadmill ACTION" but I thought Determination was a better word. Determination all in all motivates me to ACT. I hate exercising... well who doesn't but, it is sooo good for me. It's hard to make excuses.

It has been 4-5 months since I stepped on a treadmill. That last time was a week before a wedding in January. I had to fit my dress. Unfortunately, by the time the wedding rolled by, I could barely fit. So after a 20 minute treadmill workout, I was exhausted. My body was achy, sweaty, and I felt like crap.

My sides hurt, my back and shoulders felt like it was in tatters... like someone shredded my tendons and ligaments and pulled my limbs from its sockets. 20 minutes and yet my entire being was about to shut down.

I drowned myself in waterto hydrate myself. The aches subsided and by the end of the day I was myself again. I feel better after the workout. I think I'm at a stage in my life where I can make free time for myself.

The baby is getting older. She's more independent. Later she'll be in pre school most of the day. I need to start a tight schedule. I really awful with schedules. I want to fit in a couple of different classes, such as Spanish classes, maybe MBA classes, and even hiphop dance classes. Maybe I'll pick up Violin lessons again.

Boa - Eien "Eternity"

EIEN ” Eternity “ - BoA

Translation:

I’m certain that my fingers were made

for touching your cheek

for touching your cheek

I’m certain that the shining moon is there

for me and you to look at it

it was only for me and you to look at it

whenever i felt down

you were always there by my side

you always smile for me

but now you are gone

from the deepest part of my hands

my sadness pours out in large drops, MY LOVE

in this town, Tonight

I think I’m the one who is crying all the time

Because you loved me

I am who I am now

the time that’s carried by the wind

it brings back the eternity of that day

Bye bye bye

Why did you say bye bye

why did you say bye bye

At that time, about that song we always listen to

it came on while we were standing at the farther corner

and we shared our phones together

and then suddenly you pull away

and the phone comes out of my ear

and I pretend to get mad

our eyes eyes would meet suddenly

our lips would press together

you said that you will always protect me

I try to reach up the navy blue sky

I feel like my heart is about to explode

Just hold me, one more time

If I could have been honest with you

This never would have happened

When i wake up, everything will be a dream

And then you will say bye bye bye

why did you say bye bye

why did you say bye bye

I was looking destructed at the people on the street

while walking with you, the roads with green trees

you told me, make pasta for me next time

and that you will always protect me… but

from the deepest part of my hands

my sadness pours out in large drops, MY LOVE

in this town, Tonight

I think I’m the one who is crying all the time

Because you loved me

I am who I am now

the time that’s carried by the wind

it brings back the eternity of that day

I try to reach up the navy blue sky

I feel like my heart is about to explode

Just hold me, one more time

If I could have been honest with you

This never would have happened

When i wake up, everything will be a dream

And then you will say bye bye bye

why did you say bye bye

why did you say bye bye

bye bye bye

why did you say bye bye

why did you say bye bye

Romanji:

Watashi no yubi wa kitto

kimi no hoho ni sotto

fureru tame dake ni atte

fureru tame dake ni atte

kagayaku tsuki wa kitto

kimi to isshoni zutto

miageru tame dake ni atte

miageru tame daki ni attano

kujikesou na toki ni itsumo tonari ni ite

waratte kureta kimi wa mou inai nda

poroporo te no hira kara koboreru kanashimi My Love

konya kono machi de tabun watashi ga ichiban naiteiru

kimi ni aisareta kara watashi wa watashi ni nareta

toki wo hakobu kaze yo douka ano hi no eien wo kaeshite

Bye Bye Bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Ano koro futari itsumo kiiteta kyoku ga

futo machikado ni nagareteru

iyafon katahou zutsu de

kimi ga totsuzen tsuyoku hipparu kara ne

chotto mimi kara hazurechatte

watashi ga okoru to fuzakete

fui ni kimi to me ga atte kuchibiru wo kasaneta

zutto watashi wo mamoru tte itta noni

Neibii buruu no sora sotto te wo nobashite miru

harisakersou na mune mou ichido tada dakishimete

ano toki sunao ni nareba konna koto ni naranakatta

mezametara subete ga yume de atteyo

soshite mata fuzakete

Bye Bye Bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Michi iku hito wo bonyari miteita

kimi to aruita puratanasu namiki

kondo pasuta tsukutte tte

rainenn ryokou shiyou tte

zutto watashi wo mamoru tte itta noni

poroporo te no hira kara koboreru kanashimi My Love

konya kono machi de tabun watashi ga ichiban naiteiru

kimi ni aisareta kara watashi wa watashi ni nareta

toki wo hakobu kaze yo douka ano hi no eien wo

Neibii buruu no sora sotto te wo nobashite miru

harisakersou na mune mou ichido tada dakishimete

ano toki sunao ni nareba konna koto ni naranakatta

mezametara subete ga yume de atteyo

soshite mata fuzakete

Bye Bye Bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Bye Bye Bye

Why did you say bye bye bye

Why did you say bye bye bye


credit One Single Tear

Printplace.com - Yes or No?

Printplace.com is located in Arlington, TX and offers catalog, brochure, business cards and so much more printing options, it's unbelievable. Amazingly, their prices are beyond comparison with the other online print companies.

Last year was the first time I've heard of printplace.com. I was looking for a place to print short run business cards but didn't want to pay an arm and a leg. I found printplace.com also printed catalogs which I also needed.

But after hearing really bad reviews about Printplace.com I decided to use my old printer who was more reliable. I just didn't want to deal with a horrible print job.

A couple of months later, around November 2008, I was looking to make door hangers for an event I was planning. Printplace.com once came up with great prices that I couldn't pass up the offer. I also found an online coupon for 20% off my print purchase of any amount!

Totally good deal. The door hangers were amazing! I also used the 20% off to send out a brochure of our black friday deals and our Black Friday event was also a success.

This year I decided to give Printplace.com another job order. 2 print catalogs and they exceeded my expectations.

Compare these prices:

Old Printing Co Printplace.com
1,000 catalogs $2,300 + shipping $1,900 with shipping and tax
2,000 catalogs $2,900 + shipping $2,400 with shipping and tax
3,000 catalogs $3,300 + shipping $2,900 with shipping and tax

We're in Houston, TX so we had to pay tax but it's still cheaper.

We're thinking of other business opportunities that we could use printplace.com. I love that everything is received Next Day just because we're in Texas. I wish they would have more promotion codes. I can't find any more of those codes.

Rattan Has Done It Again

I went to Rattan Bistro on Wednesday night with my husband and Megan. I was all ready planning to order my usual Pork Shanks with Spinach Mashed Potatoes and Tempura apple. Our waitress Vy recommended Filet Mignon and Shrimp with mashed Sweet Potatoes. I was like humm sounds good and gave it a try.

Wow, I was blown away. I loved everything about it.

First of all, I was stunned to see it. The meal was brought out with a white china plate on a metal stand that has a rounded arm with a hanging skewer. The skewer had 3 milet mignon and 3 jumbo shrimp. On the china plate, there was the mashed sweet potato, grilled mushrooms, bell peppers and eggplant.

The different textures and flavors were amazing. I loved the whole. I love it so much, I'm going back only 2 days later for the same meal. Glad Rattan is doing specials. It keeps me from eating the same ol same ol stuff. I always try to find something interesting.